What's going on?

I have found out that I'm a fair weather blogger.

When I started this thing I wanted to demonstrate the power of focusing on God's love, wisdom, and power. The power of peace through realizing the truth about the kingdom of God in every situation. I wanted to write about how God is very much involved in every aspect of my life no matter how foul things get. And the fact that He is in control, even though everything around you looks like you've been booted to the curb.

Well it's an ugly thing to behold, and doesn't make for good reading in my opinion, but I got to remember the story isn't finished. I'm not in the closing chapter. I'm the hero who is on a sinking boat in the middle of the pacific with a pregnant wife and there is about another 400 pages to go before the book is done.

SO! Let’s get it on!

Bad news: I dislike teaching so much, I struggle against pure anger, daily. The kids aren't too bad; my classroom management is pretty good; most of the kids like me and I get along even with the worst ones; my planning and schedule is one of the easiest in Key West high school. I hate being around the laziness, unproductive, bored, lack of direction, time clock punching atmosphere. Dealing with teachers, students, administration, parents, and just about everything is about as far from my personality as humanly imaginable.

So, now that you've got the school picture, I'm not teaching next year and I'm searching for an engineering job full blast ASAP. CO is due in April, so if I get one before then, only God's WISDOM knows what I should do. And I've been sick to the point of not being able to do anything but drag myself to school and home again, 4 out of the past 5 months.

The market for selling the house is at a historic flood level. And when CO has the baby in April we can no longer pay all the bills. So it's not so bad, if your looking from the outside in, but we're looking out into utter darkness with no communication from God, trusting he is going to save us.

GOOD NEWS: I've just started a new diet that might cure my ongoing sickness problem and so far it is working like a CHAMP! The diet fights against a fungus in my digestive system and maybe even my whole body. Interesting stuff. The fungus also could be causing my arms to hurt, which is the cause of my departure from engineering in the first place. I've typed all this stuff, pretty much pain free!

I'm reading "The Silence of Adam" book, which is kind of funny, being that my name is Adam. But it's talking about Adam and Eve eating the fruit, Adam should have stopped it, but didn't. Anyway, it changed my life the 1st time I read it and I'm realizing I need to read this book every year. It's reminding me of exactly what is wrong in my relationship with God. SO! I feel like I'm on the right track again.

CO and I are doing well and I feel like we're falling more in love with each other every day. Not the honeymoon kind of love, but the [in the fox hole with heavy gunfire baring down on you and bombs exploding everywhere, staring at each other "we're going to make it"] kind of love. I'm sure she wouldn't put it like that, but I would.

We have a man-child on the way and it is very exciting and very good. CO is "going" to do it natural, so we're getting mentally, spiritually, and physically prepared. She doesn't think she's tough enough, but she keeps forgetting what she has gone through for the past 2 years. That means married to me.

God told me she can handle marrying me, I believed him, married her, and know she is learning how tough she really is. I'm very proud of her and I'm glad I'm not in her shoes.
So! It’s Saturday and instead of going sailing or playing on the water, which I have not done in FOREVER. I'm going to work around the house, getting it ready to SELL.

"The one who received the seed that fell among the thorns
is the man who hears the word, but the worries of this life
and the deceitfulness of wealth choke it, making it unfruitful."
-mt13:22
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow
will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
-mt6:34